when i was a kid i didn’t talk much. i have NO idea why. this is something that i think about very often. when you just spawned right, when you’re like one minute old, what information do you have? what do you have in you that makes you different from others?
aren’t all those kids the same? the little ones. minute old ones. i just LLM’ed this and i feel dumb. obviously all the kids are different even before they are born. but anyways, that’s not why im writing this(disclaimer: i dont know why im writing this)
so. i obviously know stuff. I can talk. You might even think i am an extrovert when meeting me. but sometimes its the people. sometimes its my “mood”. sometimes its something else but more often than not, im not pushed to share ideas or talk about stuff that intrigues me.
people are a mess. they are driven by something they don’t even konw controls them. its their emotions. “feelings”. i will not, at any point in this piece say that I have absolute control of me, although I’d like to be in absolute control of myself but am not. but i like REALLY want a number. a number/percentage of people who give in to their impulses. it feels like its everyone.
how would you react if i challenged your belief? how would you react if i presented an idea that would destroy yours? will you sit there, listening to something that feels like it takes your skin and it rips it off? would you be in control of the situation? would you be able to hold your horses? would you be able to assess what’s going on? or would you give into anger? give into “feelings”?
these are hard conversations. no one wants to do them. no one wants to go deep on “why” something is correct. you believe in God, why? you think Indians are hard working? even saying something like “i believe in it because its a stereotype and people ive met have followed the pattern so im into it” works. because it ATLEAST shows clarity. mostly people respond with “i dont know”.
its not a bad answer, but then it doesn’t look like you want to understand why? where is your curiosity? do you not want to make sense of it all?
People lack courage. For ex: people give into negativity and believe its the reality. Reality is what YOU decide it to be. And you can CHOOSE. Choose to be positive. Now one could ask (but no one will), why? Why should one be positive?
Great question.
I dont know. But I have theories. I have thought about them. I’ll maybe write an article about it someday. If you meet me, we can have a chat on why. but the point is. why give into impulses mate? how will we have meaningful conversations if you get mad at me if i ask something of you and it “feels” like it was an attack on you?
or has the society moved on from having meaningful conversations at all? have we moved on from sitting with challenging ideas. helping each other understand them? ideas are hard mate. that’s why we have each other right? to collectively understand this idea of reality?
if anyone happens to read this. forgive me if it feels like im ranting. The author (me) just wants us to have meaningful conversations. and he somehow can’t seem to be able to have them.
I often think about “strength”. I think self-control is one such virtue. Handle those emotions. Let’s have meaningful conversations. Let’s not have egos the size of mother earth and talk ideas shall we?
~ Aayushya